"And I finally found the reason why you can never be like her"

October 8th, 2004

Dear Britney,

It has been almost a month since I last wrote you a letter, but do not worry, for I have my reasons. Remember me telling you that, after the Madonna concert, things could change? Well… they have. And a lot. Somehow this button I used to have was entirely switched off, yet I still have no idea why and how.
Well first of all I have to tell you that the Madonna concert was GREAT. Great isn’t even the right word…. If you come to think about it, NO words can describe how fabulous it was. It made me realize why Madonna has been around for 20 years, carrying success wherever she goes. She’s a diva, she sings live, she creates her own music, she plays instruments, she dedicates herself to her concerts, she creates such a vibe it makes you think you’re in a different world… I finally realized why you love Madonna so much. I also realized why you want to be like her. And I finally found the reason why you can never be like her. She’s unique, and she doesn’t depend on others to re-invent herself.
During this whole period, a lot has happened. For instance, you married twice. True it was to a guy that isn’t exactly on my pink list, but once again it’s your life, your decisions, your heart… I realized I have no control over that, so I’ve given up trying. I’ll remain in my own little spot making bets and how long this relationship will last and stuff like that. I honestly don’t want to share these thoughts of mine with you, because that isn’t the image I want you to keep of me. So, fine, congratulations and I wish you all the best. After all, that’s what we fans are here for: to support you. We are all anxiously waiting for your “letter of truth”, although at first I still think it’s just another one of those marketing things.

Love ya loads,
Nikki