"I never thought I’d go this far"

August 15th, 2004

Dear Britney,

You know that everyone goes on holiday, right? There’s just that one time of the year where you want to forget all your responsibilities and lay back in the sun and relax. Some people even use this time to visit that one place where they love to be, while others just want to be with their family. Meanwhile, you get people like me that face loving you like a living and when August comes around every year, they sit back and remember how it all started, Ah, yes! It was in grade 5, on the way to the zoo. I heard your song on the radio and thought to myself “there’s just something in that voice that makes me want to know more”. Then came the CDs, the magazine cut-outs and the rest of the whole extravaganza. I visited that same zoo less then a month ago, but it felt so different. It felt strange to look around and think that after all these years, things still remain the same. I wonder what it will be like to visit that same zoo again in a few years time. Do you think things will be different? I honestly don’t know. I never thought I’d go this far. This month I celebrate exactly five years that this bond was created in between us. Sometimes I even tell people it’s been six years because it feels like it’s been so long. I look back on the years and remember when I used to be a Spice Girls’ fan. Now that period in my life makes me literally laugh. But then I think of these last five years and only a smile comes to my face. You know why? Because it’s serious. I’m not a little girl anymore. After Jesus Christ and my mother, you have become my role model. The only difference between you and the first two is that I’ve got to think twice before I follow one of your steps.
I don’t think I’ve told you yet, but in September I’m going to see Madonna live. Yeah, you remember Madonna! She’s your role model. At least that’s what you always say. It’s become more than obvious that you’ve followed her steps. Do you ever wonder if what you’re doing is the right thing? Are you being yourself, or are you doing what you always wanted to do?

Nikki